budget

I had to make a budget for my foreclosure stuff. I have made these for work, but never for myself -- not a written one. It felt dreadful, powerful, plain. I made it at work, using work thinking, to bolster me against terror.

My therapist said it's one of the most important actions I've done in eight years -- because it lies so far outside my strengths, so deep inside my fears/issues/blindspots.

"A budget is a weapon," I hear Jake Harter whisper.

The Second Law Of Money: Money has its own rules. I am finally obeying this law: keeping receipts, writing them down, adding them up. John and Cecilia and Gwen and Ed -- SJs know this in their bones. It's like watering the garden.